The holiday season and start of a new year often cause us to pause and reflect on where we’ve been and where we are headed. We might recall fond memories, proud accomplishments, and times of good ole’ fun. We may also spend time wondering what might have been if different choices were made or events had played out differently. The beauty of a new year, a new start, is that it can easily serve as a milestone of forgiveness and change. It’s a good time to let go of the past hurts and regrets and look forward to the promises ahead in the next leg of our journey.
I begin this year as a mother of six. Yep, I still can’t believe it either. It seems like yesterday that my first baby was born, and I was set on all the ideals that a new mother dreams of. Twelve years and five more children later, I can honestly say that the combination of joys and trials has shaped me in a way that I couldn’t have predicted. I’ve learned to let go of appearances and what others might think in exchange for a peace in knowing that God sees me and knows the sincerity in which I live each day. I have learned not to be so hard on myself, because we are all constantly learning new things and concepts which take time to master. I’ve learned not to be so quick to judge others, because in the same moment that I think someone is making a mistake or acting harshly there is probably someone looking at me and thinking the same thing… “gee, that girl has a lot to learn.”
So this year, 2017, if you see me making a mistake, know I am trying my best. If you see me out and about with six sweet children, in mix matched clothing, know that I consider it progress that I choose to spend more time enjoying them that day than dressing and grooming them to a tea. And if you see me struggling, offer a hug or kind word, because I probably need it as I continue to navigate the uncharted waters before me.
I am praying for each of you at the beginning of this new year, praying that you would have peace in knowing that it’s okay to be work in progress, that you’d be surrounded by people who love and support you, and that you’d have the courage to allow to Him to continually mold you.