This post from Letitia speaks to those moments when we may question “where is God?” ….
Lord, where are you? At times in our lives we may feel as if we are alone and abandoned by Jesus. We find it difficult to express what we are feeling or maybe what we are not feeling. We know things are just not right but yet, we can’t quite put our finger on specifically what the problem is. This may be a time of what is known as spiritual dryness or spiritual desolation. But what exactly does it mean to have spiritual dryness or desolation?
In reference to spiritual dryness, I found a fitting explanation on forums.catholic.com. The writer gives this easily understandable answer. As you advance in holiness and the spiritual life, God quite often hides himself from you to strip you of all desires that aren’t focused on God. Some people love God for his comforts and when he takes them away they lose faith and begin to despair. We must love God for who he is and not what he offers. The writer goes on to say, you should delight when you go through spiritual dryness as this is when you are closest to the Lord
and also keep in mind that he does this for the good of your soul.
Whatever the starting point of your holiness, some may think they are not yet holy enough to experience dryness, remember it is God who determines this time for you. So, while we may feel that we are not strong enough spiritually to go through this trial, if we recognize it, embrace it, and work to strengthen our faith, this period of time will
serve to greatly increase holiness in our souls.
During a time of desolation, St. Therese of Lisieux interpreted the seeming absence of Our Lord as similar to the time in the New Testament when Jesus fell fast asleep in the boat during a storm on the Sea of Galilee. She imagined her
soul to be like the boat, being tossed about by the waves and the wind of the storm, while Jesus was sleeping in the midst of it. Knowing Jesus is always present, even when it seems he is asleep and absent, she resolved not to wake him with her needless worries and anxieties.
When you feel alone, and it seems as though Jesus is asleep in your boat quietly whisper, Jesus, I know you are asleep in my boat and I will let you rest. Jesus says to the soul, “I sleep, but my heart is awake.” (Song of Songs 5:2)